~All In One~♥

I felt like i've billion of words to say out but i jz can't say it out~Or can say dat i dun wanna say it out baa? Cuz if i started to say everything out, unhappy things might happen~So i rather keep it to myself & jz locked it inside me~I've been pretty emo for da last whole week~Cried really badly almost everyday~=( In friendship & love relationship, actually many things i wanted to say out but i jz dunno how~How i wish u guys can read my mind but i know dats impossible~Nowadays, i prefer to hide all my feelings alone & its like hiding myself inside a box~Seriously, sometimes i'm not happy at all jz dat nobody knows it cuz i'm always showing my happy & crazy appearance all da time~What i really hav inside my thoughts, nobody knows~x( N yea, i dun like whenever friends say things like i care about bf more den them~Do u guys know dat its really sounds unfair to me? I do care about both sides~N yea, dun take friendship compare wif love relationship too~Cuz there's never gonna hav an ending or a answer~

Nowadays, wat makes me cries da most is dis~But of cuz i didn't blame bii a single thing of dat~I always thinks dat whether m i asking too much? Or m i controlling too much? Or m i expecting things gonna be perfect? Well, i dun really know~Sometimes, it seems like wat me & bii wants in our love life is different~He said dat i've changed~But does he know y i changed is because he treats me differently & not as sweet as last time so i had changed to a person dat gets angry easily & even think too much or having moodswings? He dunno until i told him during our anniversary~Well, saying out dis to him makes me feels better because i had kept inside my heart for quite long but will things goes better after dat i wouldn't knoe~But i do really hope dat things gonna be better~I know those feeling dat we've last time can't get it back dy because as time passes by, our feeling to each other is like get used to it in dis relationship~But actually i didn't think a single bit like dat b4 oni him dat hav thoughts like dat~But at least both of us know 1 thing dat is we still love each other & dat love doesn't change a bit although many things had happen~N i'm really grateful of dat~Although sometimes he doesn't know wat i really wants for us, but hu cares? He is my blur bf & i love him so deeply so dis doesn't really matter to me~=)

Quote:~We can love someone and just be happy about it even we know that it cannot last forever~It is not about having someone~It is not about owning a relationship, it is just about being happy because you know you've loved someone~Whatever relationship you have in your life now, they are precisely the ones you need in this moment~If you love someone, you give everything you can and don't expect to recieve anything in return~N yea, love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship~Its not about how much love you hav in the begining but how much love you build till the end~♥

-16.08.10-♥

~HAPPY 10 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY BABY, Shawn Yap!~♥

~I love you forever baby & its not gonna change a single bit~=)

~Hope everything in da future will goes successfully o~=]

~Love you very much my blur bf~x) ♥

~Mwahs!~

~xoxoxo~

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